Today was a great day for serenity. I did so many positive things to help build my confidence. I worked out for an hour and twenty minutes doing cardio at the gym. This is not something that I ever would've liked doing. I would have thought of it as a chore or a hassle. I now look forward to that time on the treadmill because I know that I'm doing something that makes me feel and look good and is good for me.
I took time to enjoy the sweetness and innocence of my son sleeping in my arms. Oh to be a baby and not worry about whether or not you're loved...you just love because it's what you know how to do. Wouldn't it be great to not have so much knowledge and experience clouding our thoughts and just live a basic life like a child.
My oldest son touched my heart with his sweet smile greeting me as he always does in the morning. And the hugs he gives tell me all I need to know.
I found peace and serenity in my group of friends as we all talked about trust and serenity and what it means to us. I'm comforted by the fact that I'm not alone in not trusting. We all want to do it because when there is trust, there is serenity, but unfortunately we are all human and trust is not something that comes easily to most of us.
I'm thankful that I'm still hanging on. My heart is hurting, but I'm still there hanging on with hope that things will turn around. Until they do turn around I'm going to focus on taking care of myself so that I can be independent and confident.
Thank you Lord for this day and the moments of serenity you gave me. Help me listen to you and YOUR will tomorrow, not mine. Guide me in the right direction and give me patience and strength.
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